Affirmations and An Affair

Been doing my workbook each night. Actually, yesterday I only had to do my morning pages, affirmations, and go on my "artist's date" with myself. So, I watched a movie I've long wanted to see... and own. An Affair To Remember.

The morning pages are tough for me to get out. And I'm nervous about having to do them when I get back to first shift. Which is on Monday. They take about a half hour to do and I spill out most of the drama that's going on in my head. Strangely, though, even though I hate doing them... I don't want to go without them now. And I cheat a bit. I stop at two and a half pages. I wonder if the "magic" only happens in the last half of the third page. Every few days I do actually make it that far.

Yes... I said affirmations. Embarrassing as it sounds, though none of them sound like Stuart Smalley. They seem to be helping me too so I don't care. The workbook I'm doing said they only sound stupid to people because they don't believe the kind of things you say to yourself, that you get the backtalk from yourself. I don't get much of that. But, I think the reason so many people would not be willing to do them is because they do sound... stupid... so I refuse to look in the mirror while doing it. I just run through them and that's that.

As for the movie last night. A few times through the course of it I had to remind myself to be present to the flick. Though I did have to fast forward through the second children's singing number... it was just sort of awful, to be honest. Especially being that the movie really isn't a musical. As for the rest of the movie, well done. Very well done. The writing, the acting, the chemistry, the story... all very well done. And the dresses the leading lady wears... gourgeous, just simply stunning. I'd recommend it to anyone who's up to enjoying the early days of the romantic comedy.

This book is opening me back up in a way I haven't been in years. It feels good, honestly. I can remember a bit more of who I was before. The kind of stuff I liked just for me. I have to do one of these artist dates a week. Though I think next week will probably have to occur on Sunday. I wonder what movie I'll watch since I'll be too broke to do much of anything else.