Stomach Pain

So, lately I've been talking about treating myself better. But simply not following through. Yes, I really was thinking about it. Just not doing it.

And now my body has let me know that it's time to actually pay attention to those thoughts. Actually, I'll be really thankful, incredibly thankful when I'm back in a position to do so. When I can move again without this terrible pain. It started a few weeks ago as heartburn periodically and then some other unmentionable side effects. Saturday I was hurting but it was nothing like it is now. I just thought I needed to take some Gas-X. But the Gas-X didn't work. And neither did Tums or the other pink pills the nurse gave me yesterday. The pain just kept getting worse throughout the day. Until I got home and almost cried. Visited the doctor. Turns out my stomach is raw and inflamed. Or at least that's what he believes it is. I got bloodtests done today. Supposed to find out their results tomorrow.

And all I want to do is be able to laugh without hurting. Or burp without feeling like I need to yell and wait for it to be over.

But - mostly - what I want to be able to do is walk and bike and skate and do all those things my head's been thinking about. Without drinking (which is very likely what caused this). And with full joy of knowing I'm only making myself feel better. Because right now the pain is just too great to even begin to think about doing anything I really want to be doing.