It's kind of funny to me. I was officially declared "not a nerd" this week. I guess I should be grateful... and maybe a little relieved though I had kind of stopped questioning that seriously quite some time ago. I've kind of known for quite some time that I am not and really never have been a nerd. Or a geek. Not that I've never liked a geeky or nerdy thing. I have actually, more often than not, enjoyed mostly not so nerdy things, people and experiences.
Either way... I am going to be 31 shortly and I really wouldn't be dwelling on this topic for too long had a longtime nerd (self proclaimed) not told me that nerds don't study to become personal trainers. They just wouldn't even bother learning the muscles of the body. I have to admit that, yes, the guy who pointed this out to me is a bit on the nerdy side. I don't mind saying that because he's the one who said it. "I'm a nerd and nerds don't study that... there would be no way." He really did seem pretty flustered by even the idea of it. Probably flustered in the same way that I get when we start talking technical around my office. My lack of interest is unbelievably huge. It actually makes me physically uncomfortable to talk about. Not because I don't completely understand it but, rather, because it is a reminder that I am not currently in the right line of work for who I am as a whole. It's a reminder that I need to bounce relatively soon.
However - one thing that I'll always have from this place is the comfort in knowing that I am not a nerd. At least I can walk away with something. Grateful as I am at times to simply be employed and to have a job I am good at (regardless of the twist in my stomach whenever someone wants to actually have a detailed discussion about the work we do)... there is and always will be a very big part of me that knows I'm not in my element here and neither are many of those who surround me almost daily in my element either. Nor will either of us ever be. We can get along and even smile at one another, chat it up just a little bit and have no ill feelings (high school has long been over for most of us, after all) but connecting on a deeper level... for many of us, it just may not be possible. And that is ok... it's just part of the way things work.
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2 comments:
Meh, there are different kinds of nerds. I am without a doubt a nerd, but I've certainly learned many things about muscles/skeleton (mind you, it was in an effort to get laid (massage), but hey its a nerdy way to try). Being a nerd is all about having a passion to learn. I'd say you qualify.
Not exactly what I meant... wanting to learn and being a computer nerd don't necessarily go hand in hand.
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