Off the Map

The questions in my mind seem to find no easy answer lately. Except for the fact that I am ready to drop all the extras and just focus. Focus on what?

My work. What does my work entail exactly? Less going out, more staying in and more time spent in front of paper or at the computer. Does this mean dropping everyone and everything? No.

It just means dropping that which I can't seem to handle right now. I'm kind of over spending time with or on those things that I can not seem to get into. I would like time to go walking around. To head out and explore. To sit in and read. To see where my latest story wants to go.

I've been messy lately. And it's all a part of a long delayed healing process. But healing isn't always so pretty, it seems. Sometimes it's all you can do to keep yourself from totally losing it.

Does this post make sense? I'm not really sure. I may be well off the map at this point. Far off from where my journey was originally headed.