Starting Over (Again)

Ok... we're back at the beginning. Starting all over again. In several aspects but mainly - I'm talking about my weight. Yesterday (granted it was in the evening - not my usual weigh myself time) I had rocketed back up to my starting weight from back in January. So, we're going to start again and I'm not going to feel terrible about having gained weight back. Now that the nicotine's out of my system, I can do this for real. Letting my body work the way it's supposed to.

On Thursday, I'll weigh in again. I do hope the scale goes down quickly but we'll just have to wait and see. However, I do think that I've gained more muscle in the last month than I had before... that part makes me happy. Very happy.

As for what else I'm starting over... the whole idea of taking care of myself and getting my goals on track. I am feeling more and more dissillusioned by work lately. Mostly because I wake up in the morning and fantasize about going to my own studio and working with clients instead of coming to sit on my ass all day. Also, dating. But - that is in the "not exactly yet" category. I'll get back to that once I've lost at least half the weight I'm going for.

There is something about quitting smoking that changes the game. All the way around. All of the stuff it took away from me and I did not even realize. You know... this morning I woke up on time and even got out for a ten minute bike ride. Was not as long as I would have liked it to be but it was long enough to make my heart pound a bit. Things are looking up and I'm looking in the direction my life wants me to go.