Air In My Tires

Twelve minutes on the bike this morning and the realization that my tires do not have enough air in them. No wonder it feels like I am pulling a tanker behind me. I will take care of this as soon as possible. It's supposed to rain for the rest of this week and straight through the weekend so that will probably have to wait until Monday or whenever the rain subsides.

Right now I'm simply trying to focus on a few aspects of my workouts. Some cardio in the morning, some cardio in the afternoon or evening, abs every day but Saturday or Sunday (depending on what's going on over the weekend), and weight training 2 or 3 times a week. I just want to lose this weight now. And I know this is probably makes for boring reading - I do apologize for that - but this is what is on my mind. This is the goal I'm dedicating nearly all my free time to. Last night my next door neighbor and I went for a long walk. At the end of that walk, we did a little jogging. I was amazed at how much easier it was jogging on the pavement instead of on the treadmill.

So, new goals within my overall goals:

1) To be able to run all the way around the river. That would equal a 5K. I am not going to try and win any races but I would like to jog it so that I can at least participate in the race.

2) To be able to ride around the river twice on my bike. (This is only the beginning of training for the century ride.)

Prior to recently - maybe one day I will be able to pin down what the actual turning point was - I did not have goals outside of my therapy goals. My therapist and I have worked on all of them and I've conquered most of them. However - I have not ever really set myself other goals. Dreams, I guess you could say. Or, at least, it has been years. I do not know why goals were such a non-exist in my life, they just did not even occur to me to set. Was it my disorder keeping me distracted? Was I never shown how to set goals or what goals even were? Is this just something that comes with age? I have no idea... I just know that now I'm all sorts of goal oriented and that is what life is about at this point.

Getting around the small park near my home on my bike a few times before heading down to the "river" is my first small goal in order to reach the larger goal. Getting around it once would be a gem... but I need some more air in my tires for that. The lack of air in my tires is weighing me down right now but it will not weigh me down or be my excuse forever. The excessive weight on my body is also weighing me down right now but will also not be my excuse forever. The truth is "forever" goes by in the blink of an eye if we are not careful. And we should be careful because we only have so much time in our own little forevers - our lives.