Gone Back to It

We must face tomorrow, whatever it may hold, with determination, joy and bravery.
- Zach Helm (From... you guessed it... Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium)

I have decided to start dating again. Via websites. I've signed up for three. I do wish I had an easier time meeting men while out but the fact of the matter is... I do not. They do not come up to me and they do not talk to me. That's just the way it is. I am not sure why but I am sick of beating myself up about this. Yes, I have some funky ideas of what they think of me and how they might react to me. As of late, I have been ignoring that and just going forward anyway. Or trying to anyway. And I will tell you that I have recently tried the whole smiling bit, the whole eye contact bit, all of it. And they did either turn away or act like they did not see me OR they just did not even say a word to me. No need to go into details... I will keep trying but I need to keep all options open.

And dating sites are another way to go. Simple as that. Does not mean I am not scared. Does not mean I am not concerned about rejection. But - I'm going to follow what the quote above says.

I'm going to face each day with each of these things and see how it goes. I will eat right, take care of myself right (exercise, makeup and hair) and dress as nicely as I can (when it's necessary, that is). Everything else is on the inside so there is not much more I can do.

We will see what I find out there... we will see.