Blood Goes Through Our Veins

We Breathe. We Pulse. We Regenerate. Our hearts beat. Our minds create. Our souls ingest. Thirty-seven seconds, well used, is a lifetime.

- Zach Helm (From Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium)

We can call this the Wonder Emporium series, I suppose. I liked the movie... and there were four memorable quotes, in my opinion. Which means, three quotes I am going to use in this here blog. One has been vaguely used in my latest attempt at a book.

I watched this movie the other night with a feeling of aniticipation. I was looking forward to the creativity I knew it would have in it. I knew the creativity would inspire me. I was not disappointed. Little did I realize though that so many wonderful quotes would come out of it. The one I'm focusing on today (the one above) really just took my breath away when it was first said. How beautiful and completely poetic.

I have been thinking about my future lately. In a more concrete way than I have probably - ever. I have this sudden feeling of freedom as of late and while I think I know where it comes from (extracting poison from a wound can be good for the soul), I am not exactly sure where it is going. I know what my goals are... I just need to figure out how to get there for each. First things first, schooling. I am going to get my personal training certification and I am going to get my bachelor's in creative writing and literature. I'm looking into schools for the second goal. Schooling for the first goal is already picked out, I'm just busy saving up for it right now. Another goal - I am going to wander the country and write about the experience. The "experiment" as I keep calling it in my mind. I'll train people as a way to pay my bills. Maybe some waitressing on the side or something, if necessary. I am scared but I'll be ok. And yet another goal - to get myself into good enough shape to be able to ride the century and beyond.

This isn't going to happen tomorrow but it is going to happen soon. Soon as in the next few months and years. Life, for me, will be turned around and made into what it is meant to be.

Our hearts, our minds, our souls. They are all involved in shaping our lives. Sometimes, when one or more of these components becomes blocked for some reason.... then your life becomes something else. It becomes someone else's, not your own. When all three become blocked for some reason... you stay in a land of dead ends and live out a life that would be hard pressed to create envious onlookers. Especially if they were looking closely. But, when you allow yourself to be open and honest with all three, when you let the bruises and cuts breathe a bit, each passing second becomes a symphony. Each moment that you allow yourself to plan and take part in your dreams your life becomes a masterpiece all it's own.

I am scared. I will not deny it. Because I plan for my life to look very unlike it looks now. I plan for it to be very unlike the state in which it currently resides. I have finally opened myself up to the air around me. As I sit here, my heart beats many of it's limited amount of beats and I try to take in as much of life as is possible. And as I take it in, I am thankful for it and I remind myself that there is nothing to be scared of because what I'm doing now may feed into my future but handling this is the only thing I have to do right now. All I have to do is learn how to enjoy this moment while looking forward to the next. All I have to do is handle one challenge at a time as they come up. As stated before... my challenge right now is to save up my money to pay for the personal training. (The other challenge is to get active enough to lose the weight I want to lose.) After that, it's applying to colleges for my bachelor's degree. Yet - in this moment I just have to enjoy the moment, the making of the money that will get me closer to where I want to be.