Changes... Changing... And Changed

The fact of the matter is I've been wanting to just be free lately. Kind of tired of worrying about HAVING to be there for people. Not that I don't want to be but I am a little sick of feeling like there's pressure on me to behave a certain way in order to keep them happy. I has taken me years and years to learn how not to be co-dependent. And I'm getting frustrated with others who have become co-dependent on me. Not that I don't need people, I do. I definitely do. And I am, by no means, going to stop talking to people all together or start becoming rude. But, I'm not going to jump when they say jump. A few people in my life need to learn to just simply meet me in the middle. We'll talk when we're able, you can't go expecting me to put down or stop doing what I'm doing whenever you feel the want to chat. I'm not going to tell other friends to leave my place so I can make a phone call and if I can barely keep my eyes open, I won't be able to call you back right away. I have no intention of not being there for people, especially those who've been there for me. I am grateful, very grateful for them. And this certainly doesn't mean that I love anyone any less than I did before. If anything, as of late, I've been loving my loved ones very intensely.

Am I being selfish? I can't tell.

But I can tell you one thing. Things in my life seem to be changing quickly. And I will be reflecting that in my behavior. Do I feel horrible for it? Sort of. Because I'm so used to being a certain way. But, I think I just have to get past that. Biff pointed out that I need to not feel guilty for changing. And I need to not feel guilty for my relationships changing because of my changes.

But, I feel guilty. Should I feel guilty?