No Cry

In this great future, you can't forget your past;So dry your tears, I seh.
- No Woman No Cry, Bob Marley

For those who've been close to me in the last three years... they've seen plenty of tears. And for those who were close to me before that, they have also seen alot of tears... and alot of everything else. Been a rough time so far. But, for some reason this zen feeling is really starting to settle into my bones.

I know people will still try to come along and mess a thing or two up for me. I know that tragic and/or sad news comes to all of us from time to time. I know my eyes won't always be filled with tears of joy. But, damn, right now. I've finally found the kind of peace I've been looking for. That I've been waiting for. For quite a long time.

Things are not perfect but I'm not overwhelmed. And I'm enjoying the thoughts back that I have. From my two car accidents in an hour and a half... on the same day I was walking into adulthood. Last day of senior year. To the big fight yesterday. And everything in between. I've been in therapy for just over two years and finally all the work we've done seems to be settling into my bones. I'm starting to understand a little better. Or alot better. All of the lessons that have been put on my path. And when I say understand, it's just true. I get it now. Dr. Phil's Ten Life Lessons include one that goes something like "Become one of the people who gets it." When I first read that, I didn't get it. But, now I do.

I can't and won't forget my past. But, I have a bright future to finally look forward to. And I'm ready to step into it. I'm ready for the path I've been tripping down to not seem so much like a maze.