Time To Change The Game

Sigh... good sigh but still... sigh...

Today I'm feeling rather contemplative. As I told co-Britney fan. I drove to work listening intently to the radio, to the words, thinking of whom or what they reminded me of. Trying to narrow down what I'd write about today. But, nothing comes to mind as much as just this simple and complex feeling of contemplation. So much has happened and so much has changed. Life is pretty alright at the moment. I've still got some changes to make and some plans to figure out but otherwise, I'm good. I'm feeling solid. I'm feeling relieved.

I've got to get on figuring out what my next steps are going to be. Besides getting back in shape, which I jumped back on trying to accomplish today. I have all sorts of things I want to do and I'm doing only a portion of them at the moment. In fact, the goals I have for my life are only half in the picture right now. My writing, my travels... they're nearly nowhere to be seen. Meanwhile, my beloved gets ready to leave for France for the weekend on Friday. I'm getting slightly frustrated that I haven't been focusing more attention on those things... the things I love.

Can't Wait To See Him in Uniform (replacing the rather lacking name "soon to be cop" and only a temporary name still...) has sort of got my wheels grinding too... along with my beloved leaving for France. He's going every day to fulfill something. He's really working on his future... enjoyable as it may be at times... and thinking about it... why am I not doing the same? I guess I am in a way... paying back all my debts is the first step.

Well... anyway... feeling good today. Just starting to wonder what I'm waiting for in getting serious about myself.