Patience With Myself

Woke up to Britney Spears singing "Gimme More" running around my head. Don't know why.

Yesterday was a bit rough... felt very tired and out of it... kind of cranky. Today I feel kind of cranky again but that's because yesterday was a bit of a downward spiral. The kind of day that made me say "screw it" to everything and climb into bed a little after 8:00.

Today is a new day and I have to start again. I have to forgive myself and let go of what I have done and what I have failed to do. I am bored with my job (it is no reflection whatsoever of who I am) and I think I want to start looking elsewhere.

One day at a time... just got to get myself back on the horse and keep riding. Wish it was a little easier. Wish I had a reason to jump for joy. Eventually... one day... it'll come. Maybe by the end of today, the light will begin shining again.