The Little Engine That Could

Take things as they come. Sound, good, easy to do advice. I want to follow it. But... can I? I think I can. I think I can. I think I can.

Everyday we are all provided with challenges of some sort. Every single day. For some of us, it's just getting out of bed that's a challenge. For others, it's getting through a day at work without going on a shooting rampage (with Super Soakers, of course). And finally, for others it's trying to love our personal life even when it's not perfect or anywhere near it. The other challenges we come across... trying to be a better person, trying to meet our goals, trying to just keep a clean house while life goes on... sometimes it can all be a little overwhelming.

Today I face the challenge of staying grounded, not getting too excited about what is a good thing. Trying to keep my mind on my own day instead of wondering what tomorrow will bring. I have an incredibly boring lecture to go to this morning, just getting through that without falling asleep and snoring in front of everyone is a challenge that I will have to get past. And then going to school tonight and trying my best to see and identify organelles in animal blood and bone. The problem with the latter is that it's boring and I suck at using a microscope. It doesn't have to be boring but since I suck at using a microscope, I spend most of my time staring into the light and going nearly blind. I have to try and get past this so I can get a decent grade and move on.

Apologies are rare, it seems. But, last night I got one. And it means the world to me. It wasn't just a basic "I'm sorry" but instead an "I'm sorry about... it was really disrespectful of me." Wow! Yes, yes, it was but... wow. Did you realize that on your own? It doesn't matter if you did or not but... yes, it does... in a way. If you realized that on your own that means you're exactly who I think you are. This good, intelligent, sensitive, creative, and beautiful human being that I could fall madly in love with, given the situation falls into place.

But... for now... I have to keep my eyes on today. I have to get to working, I have to sit through the most boring hourlong lecture of my work year, and then I have to get home and get my butt to school. Meanwhile, I guess it'd be ok to give myself a second to smile about what needs smiling about. Not too big though, I don't want to lose my focus.