Patience

Said, woman, take it slow
It'll work itself out fine
All we need is just a little patience
Said, sugar, make it slow
And we come together fine
All we need is just a little patience
- Patience, Guns n Roses

Heard this song in the car during my lunch break and it's got me thinking. Thinking quite a bit. I've been in a rush for the last few years. Not really sure where I've been rushing to but I've definitely been going at full speed. Full speed to try and be perfect. So that I could measure up. Measure up to... who? Who's setting the standards here? My past. But, I'm tired and ready for a nice, long rest. Which I am currently taking. Spending more nights at home instead of out and about is helping alot. Figuring out what I want for me. And I've got an entire list of items. And anyone I care for and anyone who cares for me, it'll work itself out fine. They'll come into my life one way or another. Or they'll find their way back. So... I'm going to take my time right now. Take it one day at a time and try to piece it together, little by little. Little fragments of a bigger picture. A giant puzzle that's just sitting on the table and as I walk by, I figure out where one piece fits before moving along my way.

Spice has been talking about patience over the last few days. And I have to admit, years ago I started praying for it myself. Goodness, what a long road this has been. But can I trust in what I've learned to keep my calm? Can I trust that I've been shown the ropes. I don't need to be any further along in life than I am at this exact moment. Mentally, emotionally, or in any other way. I just want to enjoy the ride for a while and see where this path I've been tripping on for so long leads. But, sometimes it's best to go it alone, a few hundred feet at a time, stopping to check out the scenery and making my own determinations as to which turn is next to take.