Whiny And Hungry And Tired And...

Yeah... so... I'm feeling bitchy and whiny and tired and hungry and annoyed. Yet - I'm well past PMS time. Is it the cold? Is it not feeling like getting out of bed in the morning to come to a job that makes me crazy half the time? Is it rotating shifts? (It's better now but it's not ALL better.)

Is it just the pressure of what's coming? What the eff is the problem... because I haven't been in a crappy mood like this in a while. Part of it is the fact that I'm hungry but I'm saving a good chunk of my calories for dinner tonight. Not all, of course and I have still been eating throughout the day but I kind of miss gorging out when I'm super hungry. Though I'm beginning to really feel a difference in my belly so I don't want to go back. I know it will not make me happy come scale-time.

Somehow I need to put getting my cardio at the top of my list. It was for a while there... I can't exactly figure out what's happening and why I haven't been doing as much of it lately. I have to go to mom's after visiting biff's for dinner tonight. I'm sick of going out late at night because it's the only time my body will allow for since I work late for four weeks at a time. I am completely and totally sick of not being able to plan my life better, with more ease, more organization.

I am in a crappy mood. Tomorrow (hopefully) I will be better.