Extended Release

We shall see. My doctor is switching things up just a smidge on me. We shall see if it works better. She's changing my dosage and the type of medication I normally take. Still the same brand, just going to try out the new extended release instead of upping my dosage with the regular type. Why? Because the anxiety is getting to me. I've been walking around with this sense of anxiety for weeks and quite frankly, it's getting on my fucking nerves.

She said I should be able to get up easier on this new stuff. And she said I won't be as dead to the world quite as quickly at night. It'll take a few extra hours before I feel the full sedating effect, which will be a nice change. I gotta admit.

She's also really not thrilled about my rotating shifts. She said especially during the winter months, it's hard on anyone... even harder when you're dealing with a mood disorder. I told her I can't ask for more than what my work has given me at this point. She did, however, offer another doctor's note, just in case things do get worse than what they are now.

The good news is that I'm functioning. I may be walking around with a knot in my stomach every day, I may be walking around with some momentary confusion and with dissociation (the feeling that I'm not attached to my body, as if I were in a movie) periodically but I am functioning. Which is way better than what I know it can be.