Training Shall Begin Today

I've only been away for a few days but it feels like forever...

Things have been sort of all over the place, really. Saturday I was miserable and cranky and crying. Sunday morning I woke up with an "uh-oh" feeling... I think I would not have been as upset as I was had it not been for PMS. Still, my hurt feelings were valid. It wasn't right... that accidental text message. And he knew he was in trouble. He was texting me alot over the weekend. At night... but still more than usual. Like each night until he got me. And I ignored him some of the time, answered short while I was still pissed. Then, finally on Sunday night I was no longer pissed and I decided to open back up to him a little. I could have turned it into a game at that point but that isn't me. So... I went to see him.

And all I can say is... after telling him what bothered me... and then recieving an appropriate apology... and him promising not to try anything with me... I started (he said he wouldn't try anything with me... I didn't say the same) the best damn make-out session ever. EVER!

So... I almost spent the night but I'm pretty sure I was coming down with the bug that hit me on Monday. I couldn't sleep, just couldn't fall asleep. I went home and still couldn't fall asleep. By Monday afternoon I was aching, my throat was a smidge sore, and my head was hurting. Yesterday I missed work altogether. And today I am feeling better, a few sneezes and runny nose aside.

Got my bike on Sunday. Excited about that. Kind of cracks me up that I got sick right away. Haven't had a chance to ride it yet. Though my dad oiled up the chain for me and took off all the tags and stuff. He didn't have to but it was super sweet of him. Now I can start training for that ride down to the shore in the fall. Also had lunch with a very close friend of mine on Sunday. Hadn't seen him in quite some time and it felt good to spend the time with him. He's going through alot right now and he is changing. But, that's just what life seems to do to us sometimes. Beats us to a point that we have no choice but to change. Some people get worse but most seem to get better. Sometimes, though... it takes one lesson after another to make us budge. To let down our pride and say... maybe I don't know it all... maybe I'm not always right. What is life trying to point out to me here?

And then you work on it. And you accept it. And it changes you.