Mushy and Numb

You know what gets me? Is when you get done studying hard and long - your brain starts to actually feel mushy. Or, rather, numb.

You know what else gets me? If I don't get done my work for the day... I feel kind of guilty for doing something else... like writing my blog.

And even more than both of these... I see the way I am studying now. I wish I had been medicated during high school and then college as well... even though the meds I am on didn't exactly exist back then. Trust me, we tried the predecessors. They blew. It would have been different, completely different.

But - oh well - everyone's meant to walk a different path. No point in looking back at what could have been when I could just go with what is actually here today.