People Are Rocks

Today has turned into confrontation central. One of my favorite chapters from one of my favorite books (Becoming Human) is Face Into Conflict. Of course, I love every chapter from that book but you know... whatever.

Sometimes in life, it's conflict just based on misunderstanding (such as with my therapist today) and sometimes it's because something is wrong with motives. I'm discovering more and more often that most people can't seem to face themselves. I mean, I never wanted to before somewhat recently so I don't blame people for not wanting to deal. Often times it's easier just to say what sounds good or decent instead of just being oneself. Sometimes people don't know what makes them tick. Either way, conflict is a necessary part of life. Dealing with conflict is even more necessary.

I don't always make people happy anymore. Biff tells me I have balls now. I'm not about smoothing it over just to end the conflict though Lord knows I don't wake up in the morning thinking of ways to get back at people. Sometimes I wish I could be a little more about poking people in the ribs but that's not who I am. Not at all. And that's ok. Am I willing to talk it out, see if we can reach a real understanding of one another? Sure. I do think what's changed is my confidence level and the way I'm looking at life. People may not like what I have to say and that's ok too. I give lots and lots of room for people being people. And I will now give myself that room too. But... if you're going to come at me. Make sure you know what you're dealing with. I'm not very big into backing down and my mind won't be manipulated anymore. (Why is Christina Aguilera singing "Fighter" in my head?) I know what I want and how it should be for me. I will treat you honestly and fairly but honesty, I'm finding is a hidden treasure that one must search for amongst the rocks.

Rocks being people, of course.