First Two Goals

Simple. Goals. Simple goals. Two goals. One, to quit smoking. Two, to get my credit card bill sliced by half. I will not worry about dating again (on purpose) until these two things are taken care of. I have plans to go to a special type of singles party this weekend and I'll go. But, after that... no more effort in that area until these other two areas are pulled together. I've got a whole list of goals I want to accomplish. All of which are being blocked by these two items on my list. So... therefore... they have to be the first things I worry about. Dating needs to just simply take the backseat. Dating costs money and I don't want to spend much extra money right now. And dating just isn't what I need at the moment. I figured this out due to the melancholy way I was feeling yesterday.

Smoking adds to the credit card debt and takes away from me paying it off. Plus, I have found no good use for smoking anymore. I don't even enjoy it all that much. It's basically turned into a chore. I mean, it's cold out. And I'm not willing to stink up my apartment. I'm doing well so far aside from the slight mood swings yesterday. And I have a plan to quit this time... I know I can stick to it. My mind is set to it. And if I can stick to it and it works, than I can stick to my other goals and make them work to. I've never known the meaning of putting your mind to something, really. Maybe I just was never able to before. Maybe I just didn't want to. I don't know. All I know is for the first time I'm feeling like all the work I'm putting into me is worth it.

And I put alot of work into me. Nearly constant. But, that's ok. It's better for me to be worrying about what I think of me than for me to worry about what others think of me.