The Outside of the Garage

A few times today I have started then stopped some blog ideas.  The first time I did not complete it because my thoughts were certainly not all in order on the subject I was about to address (not that they always are when it comes to this particular blog) but since I was about to delve into the act and idea of "balance" in general, I feel that I should probably have some in a blog about it.  Then I realized that was only a passing fancy and I deleted the beginning of that post.

Second came the blog that I began writing that sounded like so many others.  I realized I was just about to begin boring myself - let alone you.  So, I deleted that one after a couple paragraphs in.

Shortly after deciding to delete both of my previous options, I went back to my reading.  My boring, boring medical terminology charged science book.  Instead of complaining about my rut, I decided to work towards ending my rut. 

Earlier today I asked my dad how his work came along yesterday.  He's been working on fixing up some things around my parents' house.  Something that, for some, can be an extremely gratifying experience.  Working on and improving the home.  He said he got some work done but the overall picture reveals that he actually got very little done.  While he will keep on going and eventually begin to see some real results, at moments he said it just seems like such a big job... as if the progress he has made is none at all.

I completely concur.

A few of my friends have recently asked what I have been up to... what's going on... if I have anything to report.  The answer is usually "no, nothing new".  And that's because there really is very little new.  Not everyone wants to hear about my emotional state and the forgiveness factor and the like when they ask "what's up?".  Usually they want (understandably so) concrete answers.  Like, I've lost ten pounds or I've got a date on Friday or something of that nature.  (No, I don't have a date on Friday - simply an example.)  So... I generally have nothing to say right now.  Not at this moment... not in light of the grand scheme of my life's plan(s).  Still... reading just a little more, going over material that has already been read and making my way through the book is a teeny, tiny step in the right direction.  And usually that is just how it goes.