Out of My Head

I am one of those people that would easily be described as "in my head".  Yup, that's me.  I'm not sure if others know it or notice it or even give a crap.  But - I have to tell you... more often than not, I give myself a headache.  Quite literally.  I sometimes find that my jaw is clamped down hard for extended periods of time.  I wouldn't go as far as to say I grind my teeth but I am probably only about one step away from doing a little damage to my enamel.

The truth about it is... I annoy myself more often than not with the seriousness with which I take so many things.  There is certainly a time for seriousness and there is a time for lightness.  I do enjoy thinking and forming opinions.  I think everyone should do just that.  Figure yourself out.  I tend to believe, or like to believe - even if not fully acted upon - that life is mostly supposed to be lived in the light.  Having faith in life, which is relatively simple, gets interrupted when one resides so much in their thoughts, dissections and beating the life out of, well, life.

Last night I went to dinner with Spice.  We had a really good time.  I was in a mood.  A good mood.  A light mood - a fun mood.  The kind of mood where I didn't feel like tearing everything apart and figuring out exactly why I felt this way or that... I just felt like being present to the present.  So - I that is what I did.  I'm not sure how I did it exactly but I did.  I had been feeling shaky all day about everything.  Not literally shaking but shaky.  Then I prayed for some lightness to enter my life.  And before I knew it... there I was. 

And it really did feel good.