Desserts is Stressed Backwards

Back into the world again, my friend. I have spent the last five weeks holed up in my apartment Monday through Thursday in order to exercise, exercise, exercise. And my body has changed. Strangely, though, as I have previously mentioned my weight loss has been rather small. I'm losing but it's definitely at the slowest pace I have ever encountered. It's been frustrating. Not to say I'm not pleased with the body changes regardless of the lack of scale changes, I am. Still, it'd be nice to see the scale come down.

I think I have been taking the wrong approach to all this. I think I finally (accidentally) figured out what I have been doing wrong. I think I have stressed my body out both physically but mostly mentally (which translates into physically)to the point that I was sabotaging myself.

In the past week I have gone from watching what I eat to the point that it was bordering on obsession (mostly because I was so freaking hungry that I couldn't pay attention to much else) to going ahead and satisfying my hunger pangs. And guess what... go ahead... guess. My scale has not gained anything. In fact, if I am predicting correctly... tomorrow, in my "official" weekly weigh-in, I predict I will have lost a little more. I didn't fall off the dietary wagon on purpose, it was by accident. But - I'm kind of glad I did. It made me think... maybe I have been going about this just a little too fanatically.

I have turned down offers to hang with my friends (though working until 7:30 each night does not help this either) and I have veered away from going out at all. Well, with all the mental cloudiness that was going on, I could not catch focus enough to stay on top of things quite the same way. And it has paid off after all. Not just on the scale but also in the way I am feeling.

Yes, I would like to go out during the week again. Yes, I would like to eat something a little more interesting than a few crumbs several times a day. This is not an announcement that I will be going back to all my bad habits. And when I'm on the late shift at work I will still be taking alot more "me" time. But - when I go back to days I will not and can not go to staying alone all the time. I am a naturally very social creature. Not having that for the last five weeks has been a bit much for me. Life is too short to spend too much of it like that. I will not be going out every night (can't afford that since OT has been slashed) but I can afford to go out sometimes. If anything, I can't afford not to.