A Rant

Seriously... right about now I'm feeling very "what's the point?". I know this is supposed to be about dating but today - it's not. Today I'm angry and I'm upset and I'm sick of trying. Doesn't mean I'll stop trying but part of me really doesn't think there's any point anymore. The things I want are always the wrong things for me apparently. They're the things that don't work out and then I'm fucking disappointed. Again. It would be really, really nice if something could just go my way. It really would.

Maybe I'm not being patient enough. But, I'm really sick of hoping for stuff that's just doesn't happen. I'm sick of having more bad memories than good. I'd like a nice (even fun?) period time in my life. I'd like to have something really, really good happen to me. Not every time it looks like it's heading there, having it die again. Seriously, someone tell me... what's the point? Some people live an endless struggle and some people sail right through. I'd love to be an in between person, not the endless struggle type of person.