Valuing the Good Stuff

I had alot of fun this weekend. Lots of it. Good times, good memories, the beginning of my thirties. I also noticed alot this weekend. Real friends, so-so friends and not so real friends. I'm not sure what's taken me so long in recognizing certain things but now that I have, I don't believe I can go back.

I've tried over and over again with certain folks but I'm done trying. I do think most relationships shouldn't be a major effort combined with lots of letdowns, I think they should flow well. Of course, work is involved but it should go back and forth without feeling like it's generally all one sided. I'm sure I've been guilty of the one sided friendship without realizing it. In fact, I know I have. That's what hindsight is all about.

But - all in all, I'm done with trying at all with some people. And when I say at all, I mean at all. Quality over quantity though I have to admit, my quantity of real friends is not lacking one iota. I'm truly blessed.

And one more thing, there are people in my life whom I have made room for that I probably shouldn't anymore. People whom it wasn't exactly casual with that I would like it to be casual acquaintances at this point. For various reasons, none exactly the same. I'm not going to complain about anyone... and me saying this isn't directed at anyone who reads this in particular, if at all. It's just time for reevaluation to take place and mean something this time. I'm not talking about enemies here... I'm just talking about finding peace in my relationships. Drama no more!

Ok... one last "one more thing"... there are also a few people whom I'd like to work on, as in building the friendship. Seriously, I sat down and wrote a list of the people I'm going to be keeping a focus on. It was part of a workbook I have... a part about working on confidence... and working on "the party that is me". Half assed friendships and relationships have got to be put by the wayside, it does nothing for anyone to have unhealthy in their lives. If I don't like who I am when I'm with you... chances are we aren't going to make it very long.