No Bridge, Just Water

It must’ve been much harder when there was no bridge, just water
- Dave Matthews Band, Funny The Way It Is

The truth of the matter is I've been dealing with stress... little stresses and big stresses... as of late... poorly. I've got a whole pile of issues in front of me and I'm not sure how to resolve them. Some of them cannot be helped and are simply not as big a stress for me as for others. Some of them are simply stressful situations that I can't help but I'm stuck with. Some of them are of my own making and some of them just keep reminding me that no, life is not fair.

Do wish it was, at least sometimes but whatcha gonna do? I guess what I would like to have the most right now is some sort of something to look forward to. I don't feel like I have much of that going on. And I know I'm not the only one who feels this way. I mean, I've been trying really, really trying to improve my life. But every little step seem to lead nowhere anymore. I can't seem to get ahead or even on track with anything.

I'm trying, people. I really am. But the more I feel left behind in all aspects, the more I get upset with others. It's no one's fault, per say. I'm just frustrated and trying. I'm tired of trying to improve, of hoping and working and getting nowhere fast. My path seems to be stuck in a circular pattern at the moment. It's like there's a tree, a very large tree and the path leads around the tree back to the same spot over and over again. I could try going beyond the path and forge my own way... but every time I do that, I hit water. Very deep and turbulent water, with no real bridges in sight.

But... I'll keep hoping for the bridges anyway and maybe one will show up. I just hope it's not one of those scary rope and wood bridges with planks missing...