What I Want

I want to dance. I want to sing off key to songs I barely know.  I want to laugh.  Hard.  I want to open my heart and my mind again.  I want to eat good food.  I want to imbibe on some beverages which will make me feel a little tipsy.  I want to explore the possibilities.  I want to write.  I want to read.  I want to discuss everything.  I want to learn.  I want to have spontaneous meaningful conversation again.  I want to see the world.  I want to love others and life again.   

I want to live.  Growing older is unavoidable (with any luck).  Growing old before my time is avoidable.  Lately I have been feeling way too old, way too fast.  This has GOT to STOP.  And I'm the only one who can make that happen.  The early thirties is not a time to throw in the towel - it's a time to leave that towel out in the sun and bask in it's warmth after a good swim.