Mental Space

The other day I made myself sound like a slob.  And last night I did some cleaning.  Very little reading - and no work on my story - but I did straighten up the place a bit.  It only took me a short time, really to pick up what looked like a mess to me.  I had a place for almost everything that was strewn about on my coffee table, much to my surprise so now there is space again. 

I seem to go through streaks of allowing things to pile up.  I am not sure what this is about but I am sure that it usually has something to do with something taking my attention and running... as things (life) often does.  Maybe this is normal, maybe it's not.  I just know that when I re-read my blog from the other day I felt like I made myself sound like a hoarder.  It's nothing like that at all. 

A while back (as I have mentioned before) Spice had brought up the idea of "messy bed, messy head". (Or was it "messy head, messy bed"?)  And then some things occurred in my life that put me squarely back in a good mental space.  (ie. just enough medication to help me get a good night's sleep but not enough to make me "drugged")  Do you know what happened almost spontaneously after arriving back in the good mental space?  I began to make my bed each morning, right after getting out of it.  Something I have never done before but something I have really been enjoying. Enjoying mostly when I climb back into bed the following night. 

Do you know what else happened?  Several things.

One, I am back to writing fiction - because that is what I feel I do best.  Two, I am praying regularly.  Three, I am back on the exercise train.  (Though that one didn't exactly fall off too badly until the winter began to set in and Thanksgiving came along as it does.)  Four, I have cleared out alot of emotional and mental space that had been previously occupied by nothing worth my time.  Five, I have begun to develop my personal purpose in this world.  Six, I have signed up for classes in the spring.  Seven, I have stopped feeling a need to go out all the time - I am content in a world with pen and paper - or a word document and keyboard strokes.  Eight, I have become a bit more serious about paying off any debt I have incurred in the last several years.  Nine, I re-opened a door to online dating.  And ten, I simply feel a sense of peace that had been missing for a very, very long time.    

Many of these things seem to have been a cause and effect type of thing.  One link in a chain leading to another.  Much of it is a chicken and egg type of thing.  Though if I sat down to figure it all out - I'd probably be able to... maybe another time.  Either way, I am simply grateful that all of these things are running smoothly.  I can't help but notice that all of it, however, coincides with being on a regular schedule at work.  That'll be changing soon, my fingers are crossed that going back into a rotation doesn't kill everything I have finally got rolling right.