Starting Tonight

So, it begins again. I'm starting from (almost) scratch and I'm hoping it'll work well. I got my new prescription today and having it gives me a sense of hope I haven't had in a while. Am I sure it's going to work perfectly? Not so much... but I am hopeful that it will. That maybe this weight will finally start to budge and that I can start to feel a bit more like me again. Turns out that Seroquel does, in fact, cause metabolic changes that very well could be contributing to why the weight is just not going anywhere. I also happen to know - from experience - that it sometimes increases the appetite like crazy. Usually when it wasn't working in other regards also.

The new medication is not a major sedative like Seroquel so I'll still be taking just a bit of that to help me sleep at night. I look forward to maybe - just maybe waking up naturally again. The only times I have been able to pull that off was on vacation and while in West Virginia. Even then, though, it wasn't every day - not by a long shot. To feel rested for once (hey - I don't have kids to explain it) may be pretty neat. Being able to wake up and go to the Farmer's Market on Saturdays... for me was only a dream. (One of my smaller ones...) But this Saturday it may actually be a reality. Waking up simply because the sun is shining in my window - how freaking awesome would that be?

I'll let you know though - only five weeks until my levels on the new stuff are where we're aiming for. Only five weeks until things may really begin to start getting better.