Stalling Technique

"The key to change... is to let go of fear."
- Roseanne Cash

Honestly - I am not sure how much bitchier I could get today. Everything my supervisor said to me... I just made it clear I didn't want to talk to him. If there are any issues with my work, past or present, don't bring it to me today. I might end up biting your head off... literally.

Lunch has now come and gone. I am now finding myself in a much better mood. But - as of late - I find myself thinking about changes. All the changes that are occurring around me and within me. Most of my closest friends are going through big ones and the truth is, so am I. The problem I seem to be having is committing to these changes. You know, cutting back on some things so that I can fit in others.

This is making me feel anxious and the anxiety is making me stall. Why am I stalling? I'm stalling so I don't screw up. What am I going to screw up? My relationships, potentially. I have spent the last few years of my life devoting myself to them and now I have to devote myself to me. It's not that I am not moving at all. I am. Just not as intensely or quite as focused as I need to.

I have also heard this referred to as creative procrastination.

"To be or not to be... that is the question."
-Shakespeare