59 Car Rides

Only 59 more car rides and I should be done! I know it sounds like a lot but after going to the same school for over ten years... believe me, it's nothing.

That thought occurred to me yesterday amidst a bunch of other crap that was crowding my head. Dealing with some of my past issues is healthy but all sorts of emotions are coming up. Lots of anger. Which is good. That's what I was drinking to avoid mostly. Always hated getting angry or thinking negatively of other people. Now I'm freely thinking negatively of them and it just is what it is.

People will sometimes treat you like garbage in this life. And I think I'm done with allowing very much of that. If they want to talk to me, we can do a fair trade in contacting one another. If they don't care, that's fine... I'll just let them go. Sure, sometimes it's disappointing but, really, it's alright. It's the people that actually want me in their lives that I'm trying to focus on anymore.

So, only 59 more car rides and I hope not all of them are filled with anger. But, at least, the thought of it only be a few rides away and then I'll have my degree... that was an awesome realization.