Boiling Pot

Sometimes you make no progress. Well, at least I make no progress, it seems. At times. All those goals I've set out to accomplish seem to be at a standstill. I haven't lost any weight, my book is just barely touched (ok - I've made a teeny, tiny amount of progress with that one) and a few other miscellaneous areas have not improved. Strange part is... I'm not all that incredibly frustrated at this point. I mean, I'm not thrilled but I'm not beating myself up either. I figure the changes have got to be coming, right? As long as I keep at it. Change has to occur... it's just really, really slow. However, I assume that as time goes by it will stop seeming so slow... it will have gone by in the proverbial blink of an eye.

Almost four years ago I found myself single again. That'll be the case on January 13th. Honestly, I only remember the date because it was a Friday the 13th. I remember at the time thinking that it was an omen because of the date... now I look back and I know it was a blessing. The breakup itself took months and months to complete. A very painful and stressful time for all concerned. Now I look back and while I can remember plenty of it... it's nothing more than a distant memory. And so much has changed, in only four short years. Honestly, the real changes didn't start occurring until two years ago (or thereabouts). I was in a rut for much of the time prior to getting medicated. Then it took a little while to get used to being a little (or lot) more straight-headed.

But, while I sit here thinking that I'm making no progress whatsoever, the more I'm seeing that I probably am... I just can't exactly see it quite yet. Four years is a long time. And I'm over it. It took years to get here but one of my friends had said a few years ago "it'll take about half the time you were with him before you are completely over him". At the time I remember thinking "no, I'm already over him". I wasn't. Not even close in comparison.

Progress sometimes happens when you stop waiting for it to. As they say, "a watched pot never boils".