Ahh... Feeling Better

Days like yesterday are scary for me. They come close to reminding me of how I felt pre-meds. The only difference was that I had a bit of self control and I did not have suicidal thoughts. The day just crumbled way downhill, leading to a freakout like I haven't had in quite some time. Scary stuff. Apparently, once a month I have to be careful. I did not fall into a depression but I did get really, really irrationally upset. So upset that my purse went flying and my dog got scared. In the middle of the night I got to have a tender conversation with someone who had a few answers for me. And today I woke up feeling like myself again. Relieved that Friday was over.

And today I not only feel like myself but I feel like I've come through. I feel like I need to just rest. What was horrible is over now.

I'll leave you with some lyrics that may better express my emotions yesterday for me:

Welcome to the fallout Welcome to resistance The tension is here The tension is here Between who you are and who you could be Between how it is and how it should be I dare you to move I dare you to move I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor I dare you to move I dare you to move Like today never happened Today never happened Maybe redemption has stories to tell Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell Where can you run to escape from yourself?

(Switchfoot - I Dare You To Move)