Just Call Me Moody

I've crashed. The last few days were a bit of a high. Not as extreme as they have been in the past. But, I'm down and out now. And I'm really tired. I'm going to have to keep to myself until this mood passes. I don't want to do anything to embarrass myself and I don't want to make this anyone else's problem.

Part of my issue is environmental, part is just the way this takes over one's life. Last night my head became a little bit cluttered. I noticed when it was happening. Some of it because I suddenly became scared of the fact that I may lose some friends now. Or, they may be treating me differently. I can't tell if I'm projecting or it's actually happening. I checked with one person but I didn't hear back and I shouldn't have done that. I tested the waters with a couple other people and didn't hear back, shouldn't have done that either. This is my problem and I don't want to make it anyone else's. So... what's a person to do?

No one wants to be around a person who's depressing and complaining all the time. And I don't blame them for that... I don't want to be either.

I am glad, however, that I went to the gym last night and added a bunch of new machines to my workout while I was still feeling pretty good. Hopefully by the time I go back again I'll feel up to doing the same workout.